My Goals

This week, we bit the bullet - we joined a gym. 

It's a small one that just opened up about 2 minutes from our apartment  but has multiple locations (one of which happens to be right next door to my office).

So, we walk in and speak to the trainer who is also the owner (who will now be referred to as "Fitness Guy"). 

As I'm filling out the paperwork, Fitness Guy turns to Ben and says "So, what are your fitness goals?"

Ben, being the smooth talker that he is simply says "I don't have any".  Doh! 

Fitness Guy: "Did your wife drag you here?"

Ben: "Yep."  Again...Doh!

Fitness Guy (to me): "Since you're obviously the one in charge, what are YOUR fitness goals?"

I'm sure I had some witty response (which I can't remember) - but that question really got me thinking.  What ARE my fitness goals?

Here's what I've come up with:

- I want to ride in an airplane without having a panic attack about fitting in the seat or needing a seat belt extension.

-I want to wear a smaller t-shirt size than my husband.

-I want to walk the dog without being out of breath.

-I want to climb a flight of stairs without worrying that I'm going to have a heart attack and keel over and forever be remembered as "that fat girl whose heart exploded because she climbed a flight of stairs".

-I want to go shopping and not immediately flip to the back of the clothing rack where the biggest sizes are.

-I want to spend a single day not worrying about how fat I look and feel.

-I want to laugh without everything jiggling.

-I want to go to a restaurant without worrying about whether I can fit into the booth without my stomach touching the table or my boobs resting on top of the table.

-As Kevin Spacey put it in American Beauty - "I want to look good naked".

Today I had my first training session with Fitness Guy.  We'll see if any of these goals are actually attainable...

P.S.  My boss and I have made a pact - as soon as we both lose 10 pounds, we're treating ourselves to pedicures!!!

1 Month To Go

When I began this blog last year, I was hoping to lose 50 pounds by my birthday.  (Insert naive optimism here)

Well, I've got exactly 1 month to go and about...48 pounds still to lose.

It's been a bit of a roller coaster, and while I haven't come anywhere near my weight loss goal, I have discovered some things about myself, about my frustrations with food, and about my bad habits. 

I know I didn't gain weight overnight, so I can't expect to lose weight overnight - no matter how much I long for a "magic pill" solution.  

Even though I'm still struggling, I'll choose to look on the bright side - at least I haven't gained any additional weight!

I'm also sticking to my fast for Lent - no ice cream or pop until Easter!!!

Progress

Over a week ago, I gave up ice cream and pop.

While I didn't expect the pop to be much of a challenge, I was terrified that I'd not only miss the ice cream, but also replace it with something else.

I'm proud to say, after 10 days, I'm not only not missing the ice cream, but I have managed not to replace it with M&M's, cookies, brownies...you get the idea.

In addition to making strides as far as my eating habits, I'm also back on the horse, or rather, the bike!

I was doing really well, then got out of my routine.  But, now I'm back! 

I'm coming back slowly - I was beginning to irritate my foot and my knees by doing the bike every day, so this time I'm going to pace myself a little more and hopefully avoid all that.

For a few weeks now, I've been toying with the idea of joining a gym and enlisting the help of a trainer - I'm wondering if that will help keep me on track. 

Unfortunately, that's just not in our budget right now, so I'm going to have to keep myself motivated and energized.